Happy 2009!

A continuation from the previous post.
didnt really experienced a fabulous 2008. with A levels. NS. friendship problems. personal doubts and everything. But hope a brand new yr would bring a brand new start to all these issues. Worrying and complaining aint gonna do much.. shall gonna improve myself pretty much this yr.

Read joan's blog and brought me to the idea of having a relationship. Aint feeling fully matured to commence my first ever. but hope that i could get one by the end of this yr?! not becuz im becoming despo, horny, envious of others or wadsoeva. but i think this is really a new phase/stage in life. however. i also aint sure i can juggle my time and everything else. Commitment is critical at such point in time. Sighhhhhhh...

Nvm. leave relationships to fate. whatever is destined to come cannot be avoided.

Had a BBQ session with 2e5 at howkiat house just now. enjoyed really much. thanks howkiat for the food. fun and everything. Aint really sure everyone in the clique can continue to keep in contact this yr. with the JC peeps serving NS and the poly people entering their 3rd yr with all the attachmts and wadsoeva. really gonna miss the times spent.

Thought of an idea of setting a date every yr like 2nd May? cuz 2/5 of 2e5? so that the usual clique will meet and have a get-together session. and have to make this compulsory. learnt this from cindy. but i tink its really hell useful if it can be pulled off successfully.

hmmmm. the first post of 2009. let me make some confessions(privilege for those hu read my blog).... but readers. pls do not reveal any of these contents to other ppl, discuss this, or ask me any qns pertaining to the content about to be revealed.

1. took a fancy of a girl i knew (dun ask me who she is and when i knew her or wadsoeva) and at times really think of seeing her. esp when in NS..
2. im really thinkin im becoming very vain and perhaps alittle more materialistic?. like increasingly i kinda feel like pursuing new looks or specific-brand-clothing and everything
3. im actually a competitive person (after doing some reflections) and i tink i get pissed off by others very easily
4. im very weight-and-fat-conscious
5. though it may sound kinda yearning-for-a-beating. but i hope i could be alittle shorter
6. at times i think im becoming more self-centred. but hope to change this point of mine
7. im not sure i consider this fake but at times i really dislike some ppl but i still talk to them so as to prevent any weird feelings during future encounters. and i kinda hate this point about me

hmm. dunno wad else to write about le. but hope i can MATURE this yr. not only in e exterior but mentally as well..

Prebology!!